A Thank You Note

Thank you for breaking my heart.

Thank you for making me feel hurt, feel small.

Thank you for lying to me, for making me think it was this way when it was definitely that way.

Thank you for making me feel worthless

and then making me realize I wasn’t.

Thank you for making me dig deeper to find my strength.

Thank you for putting me through the bullshit that I used to cry about.

Cause now I laugh.

So what I really meant was, Fuck You.

Fuck you for not seeing what I was about to be and am fully now.

Fuck you for not ever having the backbone to respect me.

Fuck you for taking the easy way and letting me go.

Fuck you because you never cared about me enough.

So I’m gonna send this Thank You note to myself.

I’m thanking myself for being strong and dignified when I didn’t want to.

I’m thanking myself for still being strong even when I haven’t yet found what I want,

but know I deserve.

And when I do, maybe I won’t say Fuck You.

But you definitely won’t be getting a Thank You card.

Naw, I’m saving that one for myself.